Sunday, 27 September 2015

brand new you're rettro

hey, what's new? a few weeks ago I did this retro photoshoot for my friend's art textiles GCSE. not only was it super fun, the photos turned out really great - the clothes are a mix of mine/my mum's and my friend's/her mum's. anyway thank you Elli for acting as art director/photographer/makeup artist/stylist! the photos go chronologically, from the 40's to the 90's (also the title is a Tricky reference...couldn't help myself)

watching// back to the future, seinfeld
listening// anything by Tricky, for always and ever


Sunday, 20 September 2015

part 3: afropunk

I promised part 3, and here it is. looking at the photos it seems I was in NY just a few days ago - but it's been almost a month. even after 3 weeks back at school my brain is completely rejecting the notion that it's no longer summer. but what can you do? time does its thing.




once again AfroPunk was an oasis of mindblowing fashion and music. standout acts have to be Grace Jones, Kelela and Goldlink. Lauryn Hill was also great but her performance was underwhelming; I don't know her music well enough to let her mere presence substitute for stage presence. but to be fair, we were really far from the stage and her power was cut off about 30 minutes in. Grace Jones was awesome and is looking incredible for 67. I didn't know Kelela very well but knew I wanted to see her - and I was right. Her vocals are insane and her set was super fun. new york is magical in itself and being in ny with beautiful weather, beautiful people and beautiful music amplifies this otherworldliness x1000. it was an enchanting, memorable weekend.


Sunday, 6 September 2015

part 2: new york

hey y'all. i'm officially back at school, which is 100x more exhausting than i had remembered. my mind is still in america, ambling around brooklyn and manhattan. there are so many pictures/feels from new york, so I'm doing a separate post just on Afropunk. here are the inbetweens - the part i fall more in love with every year.

crazy crazy day - went to an insanely hot coney island briefly in the morning but couldn't bear the heat for long. after walking along the boardwalk for a while we ended up in a very Russian cafe (terrible pop music and all) before driving back to cool off.

we made our way to port authority with a trip to k-mart and party city (lol) to buy presents. hellish but fun in its own American way. people are so ridiculously nice here - today i have been blessed for sneezing by a complete stranger and had a conversation with a Trinidadian woman behind us in the line of party city. people talk to each other here, which is such a taboo in London. 

on the street a group of 20-somethings were doing crazy yoga moves. down to the hot humid subway and saw Alok from DarkMatter! what are the odds? in New York it all can happen and I'm falling in love again. we were talking about Alok, who probably heard us - wanted to clarify we are fans but i am just a white cis liberal after all. this is all surreal and all beautiful. in a week i will be back in london but this bubbly wonderment makes up for it all. i could uproot everything and move here in a heartbeat.

had a very wonderful, Brooklyn day. these short notes will not be able to take me back to now but are important for me to process the present. went to the Brooklyn museum and saw a basquiat exhibition of his diaries and various other works, as well as a very extensive exhibition about the history/cultural significance of trainers. one diary entry had only the words 'bit too bitter' written on it, which unsurprisingly resonated with me. basquiat is an artist whose mind is impenetrable and slightly twisted but beautiful. debated whether to buy some earrings of his crown motif, but decided against it. consumerism is what he denounced - what is consuming us.

it seems alien that i will be back in a week. i haven't really thought about it in a literal sense of 'i will have to drag my ass up at 7am every day in a week' and i am so so so not ready. summer doesn't feel like an end to anything anymore - just a short hiatus. but this happens every year (i got that summertime, summertime sadness).

the weather was gorgeous so we walked along the highline, soaking in the juxtaposition of plants and city. near the end I bought a delicious coconut Mexican style ice lolly which I dripped everywhere in the new york heat but was incredibly satisfying.

this is not the average teen dream - I am deeply infatuated with this city. it's the terrible confusing train lines, the unbearable heat, the strange segregation of integration, the bugs, the smells. but also the good things - the people, the food, the views, the culture, the museums. it's insane and wonderful and infuriating and breathtaking.


Sunday, 30 August 2015

nostalgia/america: part 1

I'm back from my annual America trip. I'm not as distraught as I was last year - i was actually pretty exhausted by the end this time, and some part of me wanted to come back. i made notes/diary entries throughout the trip which i'm alternating with the pictures to achieve some ~balance~
there's so so much to write about the trip. so this is part 1: Chicago.

coming back here induces a welcome surge of melancholic nostalgia. for the first time i feel as though i have grown up here - nothing has changed so everything is familiar.[...] driving to Skokie i was marvelling at the sprawling slowness of time. endless crappy strip malls take up the space of 100 flats in London. 

the days here go fast but also feel endless. we've been here a week and have seen family & friends, explored Chicago a little and watched shitloads of movies - favourites have to be Dear White People, The Brady Bunch and Almost Famous. Almost Famous made me realise that being cool or distinguishing yourself from others is neither very important nor very attainable. 'coolness' is so subjective anyway. maybe being able to look like everyone else isn't a bad thing - it's like an invisibility power.

it seems there is no shortage of space or time here. now i remember the constant low hum of the bugs in the trees, the sad brown buildings of Skokie. we saw fireflies as we were arriving, emitting a greenish glow before disappearing into the dusk. 

it feels as though time has frozen here, and we are just taking a break from our London lives to continue where we left off.

i'll be back in about 3 weeks. then the wait begins again for next summer - the anticipation is often better than being here. but it's been fun. we made a fire and roasted marshmallows for s'mores which was not disappointing and was an ~American experience~

this is the highlight of each year and it goes by so quickly. each minute feels so fleeting i feel i have to constantly remind myself of the nowness of now.[...] so many thoughts & feelings to process - about summer, about time, about loss. the loss of summertime.

reading// Great Expectations (took me ALL SUMMER to read)
listening// SZA - Babylon, fka twigs - M3LL155X
watching// Broad City (loooove it), Leon: The Professional
feeling// lonely, missing New York

get ready for part 2 you guys...